Placid

Time fleeting fast, an air so fresh brushes your face,

thoughts and dreams echo in spaces vast,

the serenity beating through this place.

A constant hum in the milieu, 

filled with words empty all the more.

Reason ceases to exist,

O’heart you’ve found your place. 

Purge.

And thus, you have been humiliated.
    Have you not hit the ground harder?
This is the end of of your tunnel.
Look forward, maybe you'll see the light.
      you've taken the storm,
braved the beating.
      Redemption will come.

Take A Minute

Stay still my heart.
You're been burnt, beaten and loved too many times.
You've been tricked, hurt and laughed at.
You fall too soon, you trip too hard.
You dream too far, you feel too soon.
It's never too late and it's not so lovely.
But, the road ahead is not so dark and dingy.
You make it what you seem.
Beat slow my heart, no need to feel a rush.

Barren and Empty; Lush and Complete

Quiet weird isn't it? Sometimes when you struggle hard to set things straight, look for monotony in the randomness, the calm in all the noise, There! You found it! God Bless! You're calm, you're steady, you're satisfied, but not happy. You walk through a crowd like a ghost, trying so hard to go unnoticed, wishing with all your might to keep things lasting that way. You're up, you're ready, you walk, you pray, you're steady. You fake a smile, shed a tear, and act like you're not that stone cold, not just yet...you listen, you keep quiet, and you wish just to be left alone. You get it, you have it, and it’s yours. You like it, you hold on to it strong. Swish! The flick of a wand? The chill of the breeze? The sound of silence? You feel the cold, you feel the void, the emptiness inside. You’re scared? But how can you? You were the same person who wanted all that, and now you feel fear? Ludicrous! What’s wrong with you? Are you fine? You need to see a shrink, you need to talk, you need help. But then...no one listens, no one's bothered, when you were that ghost of a man, when you were that face in a crowd, they didn’t look, they didn’t ask, they didn’t care. Why? Because you were constant, you didn’t change you didn’t have a life that you lived, that they were interested in, suddenly you’re a someone with issues?? Didn’t they think for once that you probably needed help when you were shadow? Only you know, only you will always know.. Maybe along, it’s not cold anymore, it’s not scary, it’s not uncertain, it’s not dark. Suddenly, you feel the warmth, you want to smile, you want to cry. You did it. You love it. You feel alive, you feel living. You see the faces haunting you every time you look in that mirror, fade away, they recede, not into darkness, but light, they go, not in vain, but in peace. You let go, you feel free. You feel light, you can breathe. But why? Why you ask my love it all plays that way? I don’t know, I don’t have an answer, but maybe so you know what it feels like to be alive and living, to feel warmth and light, to feel joy and sadness. Maybe, just so you start living and then that’s what you hold on to strong instead, the light, the fun, the colour, the life. Don't let it go when you've found it, don't let it go...

Moments

A touch , A smile
The butterflies...

The words, The silence
My oh my! 

A look , A stare 
You! How dare!

Stay, Don't leave
There...Right there.

A Long Awaited Fortuity

Well Hello there!

I get that it’s been a while since I sat down and spoke to you. Not like you missed it, but you know me and I’m full of myself. Life seems to have taken quite a turn, things that I never did foresee happening, happened, lovely events of course. While I was busy being lost and wandering, someone seems to have managed to have found me and wriggled their way in. An unexpected meeting, a not so-courteous exchange, a chat by the beach, a moment of blissful silence, and now a wonderful bond. You know how sometimes you could look for that one thing you desperately want, and only when you need it most can you not find it?? But then you give up looking for it, and you turn your mind away and go forth with life not needing it at all, and then one day , suddenly you find it! Right there, always where it should be, but you just never looked long and hard enough at that one place. This is somewhere along those lines. To describe him, well let’s see If I can do this.

Innocence. Beauty. Benevolence. Smiles. Laughter. Serenity. Special. Safety. Warmth. Love. Search. Strength. Pain. Walls. Guised. Truth. Eyes. Passion. Heat. A sweet dream. Companion. Life.

Well there you go! That’s all I’ve got. Maybe just the words, but I hope it says more to you. And YOU, if you’re reading this, well go ahead and call me stupid, but I see what I see and please let me see it.

Now to come to think of it, I seem to have forgotten what this post was about. But the point is, yes, I know life is not all smiles, and it seems like a whole lot more trouble at times, and you search and venture out into the unknown, get lost in the dark and struggle to find your way back. But wait; hold on, if you look too hard you won’t find it, because you’re just so wrought-up in your problems you can’t see past them. So take a moment maybe, calm yourself down, and just when you start living and you tell yourself “it’s alright you can make-do without”, it’ll appear, some divine interjection maybe, but I promise you it will. So just smile silly, takes the glum out of the days, and makes the burden lighter.

Come Closer

I don't want your kiss, when its so cold
Don't give me that smile, when you don't even know
What I want from you.

Don't touch my hand, don't hold it.
Don't like it when it feels so limp.
Where's all that warmth, where is all that you said you had??

Don't try and tell me , as if you knew.
Knew what I'm feeling, knew what I'd do. 
Why hide behind the words, hide behind the pain? 

Please come closer, can't you see me? 
I'm standing here,
Don't go away, when you'll regret tomorrow.

Pick me, pick me, I'm naked and exposed.
Its scary and cold , but ill wait here. 
For you , ill be bold. 

Not that I don't love you, not that you don't , but it takes more than those words, 
Ill wait for you to show.

Patiently. I'll be waiting, don't have anywhere else I need to go.